Clarity

I have begun my time here in Amman, Jordan volunteering as a teacher at Amman Baccalaureate School. I have been assigned as the KG Media Specialist (teaching ICT skills and helping in the library), but was asked to serve in a different role for the first few days because one of the classroom teachers was on maternity leave; instead of beginning in the library I helped in an Arabic Kindergarten classroom. The head of the KG said that I was needed mostly for crowd control. I wanted to be of help in any way I could. The other teacher gave all the directions in Arabic and would occasionally reference my name; I felt inadequate because even after asking I felt like I could not completely understand what she was asking of me. The first day I was very overwhelmed and knew I would have to approach it a little differently to give my best and get the most out of it. After thinking on it I realized how much I rely on having clarity to take any steps forward in life. I was relying on knowing exactly what the other teacher was saying in Arabic to be of any help. Even though I've been told time and again and understood to a certain extent that life and situations in it are not always black and white, this experience helped me to think about that in a different way. Instead of letting lack of clarity overwhelm me to the point of inaction I needed to search through the circumstance for any thing I could possibly understand to be of service. I know this year is just beginning and there will be lots of unknowns, but it will be much more valuable for all involved to approach it with a constant seeking attitude and not neglecting to do whatever I know is important and is needful. I've been in and out of a few of the classrooms now and teaching my own ICT lessons in the library. My role definitely has definition but the clarity is not always there especially since it's new to me. As I've approached it doing the best I can with what I understand, not letting the unknowns push me to inaction the days have been much more rewarding. I've even learned how to count to ten in Arabic from one of the Kindergarten students. :)

~Audry~